A day in the Life

Its a beautiful day, but I'm not feeling to happy. I woke with a headache, and it hasnt really gone aywhere. I taught my class to Elana and ricks brother, and got a nice hug from See.
I woke up still thinking about lst nite with K. Still stings, her being into me, and yet.. not. And then theres J.. whom i hug, and am still rejected by. Probably again by virtue of being nice. Though K said i wasnt overly 'nice', she also acknowledged her strongest feelings for me were when i ignored her. So, i better just teach myself to ignore women. It doesnt really make me happy, but then at least I'm not setting myself up for a big let-down.

So my bigger issue is these headaches, the right side of my head, through to the eye. maybe some sinus going on, too. Water doesnt fix it, though of course i need to drink more, and the last thing I should have done was to consume more chocolate. But i think this headache is just my emotional pain buffer, a game of pingpong that 'I' officiate. Maybe thats why i need to try thre drugs again. Yogas not doing it. In one way,. My body has been hurting, particularly, the head, shoulders, neck, heart, clavicle.

i should start taking the other stuff, as well - 5HTP, and the other serotonin precursors.

i need some professionbal focus to alleviate my social dysphoria - then again, all i want is to be released.

BlahhhZee

Time for my second pill for the day. Nice time at dance, and making out with Dini yesterday.
Today, my back is a bit sore, and my spirit is droopy. Must be from the blueballs? Or maybe the excessive yoga, as usual. I've been trying to stay moderate, and havent gotten high at all. Cant seem to get into work gear. Staying up late makes me useless.